In the Midst of It

A picture of life with four kids - homeschooling,
toys, and diapers - but worship in the middle.

I admit it, sometimes caring for four small boys is overwhelming. Sometimes I do just want to be alone, to finish reading one sentence without being interrupted, to make dinner without an audience. Sometimes I actually want to stand tall and proud when someone asks me for the thousandth time "Having four kids is hard isn't it?" They are right I think for a second - I should get a badge or something. Sure there are times when it is difficult but at the same time my boys are not a burden that I bear. I often hear another question "How do you do it?", usually followed by "I could never do that". There are times when I want to think that I am doing something spectacular, but in the end I know that I will not succeed as a mom apart from the Lord's help. As I was working in the kitchen I noticed what you see in the picture above. I began to think about how totally different my day goes when I do not saturate my mind and heart with Him. I was going to clean off the table before I took the picture, but then it would not be reality. A good friend gave me this ipod and speakers as a gift and I keep it on most of the day. I listen to praise and worship music as I go about my day and it helps me be a better mom. I do not want to 'survive' this season of my life, I want to enjoy it, to thrive in it, to succeed by His definition - and I know that I will not do that unless I keep Him ever before me.